Happy Birthday Angel

Happy Birthday to Our Son! We love and miss you like crazy. When you were born 24 years ago our lives were changed forever. We could not have guessed then how the unconditional love of a child would feel. You brought many smiles, laughs, and tears into our lives. You brought us two beautiful grandsons to love and cherish, and we promise to never let them forget their daddy. We will be forever grateful to you for showing us how to live again and for bringing us home.You will be forever in our hearts and on our minds.
R.I.P. Our Guardian Angel, we love and miss you Momma and Dad


Dream as though you will live forever, Live as though you will die tomorrow

Rekindled Love

Teen pregnancies, teen marriages and teen divorces, I know all 3 very well! You see, I was pregnant and married at 16, gave birth to my son (RIP) 3 weeks after turning 17, divorced at age 18! Went on with my life full of ups and downs. Then 22 years later found my first love again! If your love can last that long being away from each other, then it must say something about some teenage love!
Sometimes when we are talking, it feels as though we are in 1985 again! What an awesome feeling! We were apart through the years of our son growing up, but we will be together watching our grandsons grow and will be a part of their lives the way it should be!
For anybody who lost that love of your life and has never known love again, I am truely sorry for you!
Live your life the way YOU want to, not how others want you to! I love you Roy!

Dream as though you will live forever, live as though you will die tomorrow! RIP my Angel

Hayden

Spending a day and night with our grandson! What a good time we had! Go to pick him up and get a tour of their new house man is it nice! Hayden had to show us his fort, these old bones are getting too old, but it was fun climbing up into it and seeing him so excited! Then it was off to the video store to take an hour picking out a scary movie! That's always an experience! Then to McDonalds to get dinner then home! We watched his "scary" movie about sharks since his movies always come first! Then, have you ever seen a 6 year old play Yatzee? Well I'll tell you it's pretty fun, but did you know it's possible to get a gazillion points in one game of Yatzee? Well it is if Poppa is helping you with your score! He also had fun drawing tattoos on Momo's arm! Then to bed watching Back to the Future! He likes time travel! Our next day started early, 6:20 to be exact! Breakfast was good, he even asked for more! Then it was off to Nana's and the park! Did you know that girls worry too much? That's what Poppa and Hayden think anyway! At the park he got a history lesson on coal miners, which he thought was cool! Then our time was up so he went to Nessa's house! He had to show us that he can infact ride his bike without training wheels, because he wants a dirt bike! He tried to pop a wheely and crashed, poor boy! He is such a sweetheart, thanks Lee for being such a good mom and letting us be a part of Hayden's life!

Days come and go

Can somebody please tell me how I am supposed to make it through the next 3 months? My birthday came and to keep from going completely crazy, I slept all day! Now I have Skylar's birthday to make it through on the 22nd of this month! How do you do this? I guess if you haven't lost a child of your own you really don't know that pain! People say move on, well I say to these people, you go through what I have, then you can tell me just how to move on!! Until then, if you can't just listen to me when I need to talk about my son, then don't bother having anything to do with me! Then we have the holidays coming up, and OMG I can't even think of January being here again! I love you my angel!

My Dearest Son

In the words of George Jones, with a few changes:

Imagine a world with no 2Pac rap songs,
Then think of a club where nobody's drinking,
If you ever looked up at the sky with no blue,
Then you seen a picture of me without you!

Did you walk in a garden where nothing was growing,
Or stand by a river where nothing was flowing,
If you seen a red rose unkissed by the dew,
Then you seen a picture of me without you!

Can you picture Heaven with no angels singing,
Or a quiet Saturday night with nobody partying?
If you watched as the hearts of your boys broke into,
Then you know what life's like for us without you!

I can't even begin to say how I am feeling, I am seeing that dark place again and I know it's because of the time! I love and miss you my son!

One More Day

Sunday was 7 months! Man is time flying by or what? It was a sad day then turned out to be a good day! Me and Roy had looked at a house on the lake (The Lake House) but the owners had more people to look at it. We found out on Sunday that we get to move into it! We are so excited and can't wait! The signs were all there, I was just being doubtful! You walk out the front door and across the yard on the back of a storage shed is a sun and a moon, anybody who truly know me, knows what that means! Then looking at the pull string for the ceiling fan in the living room, had a bird on it! Took Hayden with us to see the house and pay the deposit, he liked it until he realized there was nothing to do right at that moment, then he was bored!
I love and miss you my son!!

Live life for today!!!

Getting on....

6 months ago today we buried our son! What a day to remember, it was then that we admitted we still loved each other. Thank you for being there, I really do love you!
I threw the first shovel of dirt on the grave, Roy threw the next several shovel fulls on. Why can't we just have him back? Only God knows why he was taken from us at such an early age. I know we have all the memories, sometimes that just isn't enough! I long to see his face, hear his voice, touch his hands, have him come in the house saying Momma look at my new tat or see a new piercing he has. Or even just to hear him say "Momma I love you"!
RIP my angel, until I see you again!
Dream as though you'll live forever, Live as though you'll go tomorrow!

Live life for today.....