My son, my baby boy! I miss you so much! I think it will never quit hurting so bad! I dream about you, I think about you every waking minute. I want you back in my life, so I can hug you and kiss you and wipe your tears away and tell you everything is going to be ok. We could play basketball together, go for a drive, ride the motorcycles, shoot the gun, sit on the porch and talk or any of the many things we used to do. I really don't know how to live my life without you in it. I pick up my phone to call you, and realize I can't. I find myself wondering when you are going to call, just to remember you aren't! I want so bad to be able to talk to you! I talk to you every morning driving to work then through out the day and driving home from work, then through out the evening. I wonder if you are hearing what I am saying. I long to hear your voice and see your face in real life. I know you sent me the message that everything would be ok, but I'm not ok. I feel like I am just dieing inside and nothing can stop it. I just want to go to the cemetery and lay by your graveside and never leave there. Tomorrow is 4 months since we laid you to rest. How could time keep going when you are gone? I love you forever and a day!
Live life for today.....
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